Missing You.....

The Buddhist priest told us that we had to let you go and not mourn your loss because your spirit will not be at peace. How difficult it is not to cry when I think of you. I can't help how I feel and some days it is more difficult. All of us miss you terribly. We are trying our best to move on but the pain and the tears will never go away.
We have all been going through different stages coming to terms with not having you around. It is such a difficult journey with no end in sight. I have been unable to write on your blog because it was becoming too painful. I will try to be more consistent from now on. Almost 7 months.......

What has your family been up to?

Param has started a trust fund for your beloved grandchildren with your last drawn pension which mysteriously came in the post last week. I think you were happy that Param finally had his hair cut and you were rewarding him. The Hibiscus Thava Fund (HTF) Your grandchildren will still continue to receive money from you even though you no longer are here.

Jeyanthi is busy with her new house, which you would have enjoyed if you were around. She bought the little alter that you always wanted. She had us all over for vegetarian food. Hope you enjoyed it as well. She has taken over your place telling us when to be vegetarian and what festival was around the corner. Dava says she is worst then you. She even managed to get Param go to temple. 

She found something among her things while tidying up. We never knew about its existence.

Never knew that appa had a book specially made for his 31st day. I wonder who wrote this first page? The rest of it was in tamil. Jeyanthi was supposed to ask Chinamah about it.